I've been reading and listening to a lot of people talking about stepping out and doing your own thing, and being consistent about it. This has been mostly in connection with improving your writing skill, or small business ideas. But I can't help but largely feel conflicted.
“If you don't have time to read, you don't have the time (or the tools) to write. Simple as that.” ~ Stephen King
Seeing a quote similar to this on Twitter, I took it as "If you don't read, you can't write." So I have been taking the initiative to improve my writing skills by reading/listening to books like The Hobbit, Divergent, and Ender's Game. Not to say I haven't been much of a reader in the past, but they largely been philosophical and academic, nothing that gets the creative imagination going.
If you read a lot of guides to improving your writing/blog, two tips you'll consistently see is; write something every day no matter what it is, and be true to yourself, write what you want to write about.
This got me thinking about the nature of writing online; if you are "speaking", and no one is listening, shouldn't you care? Writing is definitely a great method to process thoughts and emotions, and many people write just to get their thoughts and emotions out. (Clearly, something that is going on in this post). But when we write online, doesn't that change the reason for writing? It almost implies a desire for readership; you want someone to see it, you want someone to care.
Because I equate my thoughts, ideas, and ventures, to who I am. I fear that any subsequent reactions, or lack thereof, is reflected on me as a person. I have had many "brilliant" ideas in the past that were going to help make me a living, i.e. T-shirt design, that haven't been as successful as I thought they would be, and so it makes me wonder "if my designs weren't good enough, what does that say about me or my skills?"
I suppose I have been reading too many posts about "improving your blog" that I have gotten into the habit of "measuring". It is tough to write just for the sake of improvement, when the posts you read are founded on the idea that success is measured by readers. If what I'm writing is not being read, then it must suck cause no one cares, which means I suck, which means I should stop.
Very hard circular pattern to get out of.
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